Tuesday December 29

Good Evening,

What a day… I am currently in NYC just counting down the minutes until I can finally leave home from work. It’s pretty chilly out which is great because I can finally say we are experiencing winter out here in the northeast.

Do you ever wonder why things are constantly changing? Recently life has changed drastically for me. People who I believed would always be in my life have vanished or I have just simply let go of them. But why is that? Why do we find the need to change or in some way emotionally evolve? Personally I think that we latch onto people when we are going through rough patches throughout our lives. It leaves us vulnerable in a way and we look for someone to hold us together in the mean time. Just like we look for love. I remember when I was about 12 years old, I was so desperate to find love. Now that I am a little older I think of myself as a fool for rushing into something I should have taken my time with. Then again life is all about learning so it is safe to say lesson learned. I’ve always liked my independence. I like to feel like I did something on my own without anyone’s help, I don’t see it as having pride but I definitely do feel proud of the things I have accomplished on my own. I am the kind of girl that may not say much at first but that is only because I have a gazillion thoughts running through my head as well as a wild imagination.

You know what though as I write all this I am honestly in a state of utter happiness. A happiness i cannot explain, a freedom and detachment of something that was emotionally overwhelming. For that reason I will end tonight with this 🙂

Night lovelies.